Is It Wrong For Me To Love You ?? - Stories Of Love

 Many people say that periods of high school was at its most beautiful. She's supposed to, high school is a time when young people are looking for identity, the transition from adolescence into adulthood, or the time when a person begins to know love. Today, this morning I became the new high school. The first day of this MOS is not so interesting I think. But the next day I feel no different with the arrival of new students. Yes boys were late for the first day. I think son still mediocre, his height, his skin brown. What's so special about him? But that makes me wonder is the average of my girlfriends in class admired or even loved. Really weird. Sure, I admit a little bit handsome face, but ... ah never mind doing me thinking about him? Not important, too.

A week after the announcement of a new class division announced. Announcement board filled with students. I also participated in the announcement crammed see results. When I see one by one student's name was on the list, "What? Raka Adiputra in my class? How come so anyway? "I was surprised when he saw the boy's name turned out to class with me. "So what? Do not like it? "I was instantly turned toward one of the student next to me. To my surprise when I saw, saw he was on my side and he heard the words before. Raka was next to me at the time. I cannot say anything at the sight. I could only stare in front of him. If I do not say so earlier, this will not happen. Immediately I immediately walked away but instead Raka call and he made me stop my steps, "Why even go? What's wrong with Raka Adiputra? Do you have a problem with it? "He asked as he walked over to me. "Oh um no. There's no nothing really. "I replied with a little nervous and I was going to leave it.

Already 2 weeks I class with Raka. I think the world is running very fast. Back when first met, I always nothink him. But having known him, it turns out he was good too. I think his Raka was not cool, cocky but after I saw during this turned out not too. The longer I'm more familiar with it, with Raka. Yeah you could say I'm pretty close to Raka. But all of this just as a friend because Raka itself already has a boyfriend. Yes even so, no problem right? Additionally, Raka often tell anything. Whether it's while he was having a problem or when happy. So far I never thought the situation now. Who initially hated by Raka, now even become friends. Fate is always a surprise for everyone, even for me.

But lately, Raka uncharacteristically. He was often moody for no reason. When I asked why she was moody, he remained silent. What actually happened to him? When I saw him in the cafeteria alone, I tried to him and asked what was happening to him. As I sat next to her, I could not bear to see him at that time. He absently staring before him drink it. "Raka, you know why? Lately I see you why you often daydream? What is it? "I asked, curious. But Raka remained silent, he would not answer my words earlier. "Raka, if there is a problem the same story I yes." I said. "I just broke up at my boyfriend." Raka finally the story as well. But ... what did he say? New break up? Yes gosh I think there are serious problems with it. Raka, a guy who I know so far, the guy who is always cheerful but could be so after breaking up with his girlfriend? I really never thought. "Raka, you're the guy. You have to be tough dong. Period 'because it was decided only've often daydream like this? You were not ... "I have not finished talking directly Raka cutting me off. "You do not know anything, Rara. So far, I'm very fond of her.! "He said. I do not believe what I'm facing today. I tried to calm him down but he'd yell at me. "What's wrong with me, Raka? I just want to help. Actually I do not want to meddle this your problem, but I do not have the heart to look in you constantly moody like this. Why are you still thinking about him who has hurt you? "Hear my words makes Raka mad at me," I do not want pity, let alone at a girl like you! Previously, I also do not ask you for advising me, is not it? "

What I did not hear you just now? Raka talk like that to me? What's on your mind today, Raka? why did you say that to me? It seemed there was turmoil in these feelings. I tried to hold it to her taste MY temper, I never thought Raka could say that to me. Immediately I immediately walked away. Leave him alone in his sadness.

Since that incident, I did not say anything else to him. When I met him was, I chose not to speak to him. It feels a friend who I used to know it, a friend who was always cheerful, always with me. Now he has been away from me. I really do not understand what was on his mind at this time. Away from me? What is the way out, Raka? Reverie stop when the phone vibrate when it. I opened the phone and turns ...

1 message from Raka. Immediately I immediately read it.

"Rara, I'm sorry about the incident that day in the cafeteria. Because of the incident, our friendship became estranged. I do not know you're still mad at me what baseball. Which obviously I apologize to you for my behavior at that time. As a sense of my apology, I want to invite you to eat later fitting home from school. You want it? "

I put my phone into the bag. I do not want to reply to a message from Raka. I do not know what is in his mind at this time. Yes even though he has apologized to me, but it seems this is still a heavy heart to forgive him. I went to the canteen to buy food and I went to a school garden to calm my mind. Seeing the beauty of the school garden, a moment will be able to forget my problems with Raka. Shortly thereafter teett..tett..teettt ... last lesson bell has sounded. Soon I walked to class with a grim face.

When I got class, I opened my phone at the time. When I opened there were 10 messages of Raka & 3 misscall him. The message is the same. Apologized to me and took me out. With a heavy heart, I immediately reply to a message from him:

"Yes, I will."

Without thinking I immediately sent the message. No need to type long-long messages. After all, he must have understood that I was still mad at him.

After school Raka was waiting in front of the school with his motorcycle. He took me to my favorite dumplings shop that is located not far from the school. Arriving there, Raka immediately ordered two servings of dumplings. I was silent then, instantly Raka immediately asked me, "I'm sorry Rara. I know you're still mad at me on my attitude too rough on you. Forgive me, O Rara. "He said with a smile in front of me. See that sweet smile, could not bear it if not forgive. I was immediately nodded his head. "But, if you already forgive me. Why are you still moody? What you do not sincerely forgive me? "He asked, curious. "Um baseball anyway. I'm not okay. I already forgive you. I'm glad to see you did not sad anymore. "I said immediately, smiling face. When should I admit to you, Raka .... I was very sad when we fight like this. Kindness is better, is not it? "Wei, why even silent? What is it? "Raka suddenly interrupted my thoughts immediately at that time. I suddenly shook him. Soon our orders came. It has long felt the same meal together Raka. Well, today is arguably the most happy day for me.

"Oh yes, anyone want to tell us to you. News happiest me. "He said with a big laugh. "What's that?" I asked, curious. "Yesterday, I just had the same feedback Princess. You know not, Rara. I am very happy. Anyway, from now on I will keep this relationship with the Princess. I'm very fond of him so I do not want to lose him for a second time. "He said, smiling brightly. Instantly it was me speechless. What? Feedback? Raka at Princess feedback? What I did not hear you? The words coming out of his mouth Raka so pierced my heart. What is happening to me? Why I'm not so happy to hear it? What I did during this .... Ahh, not possible.

"Rara, what is it? It seems you are not so happy to hear it? "He asked. "It is okay. I'm happy anyway. Very delighted. Glad to see you happy like this. "Hear my words, Raka immediately smiled happily. Her smile that indicates that he was very happy. I tried to smile in front of him. Although it is a fake smile. Happy to see you like this, I'm pretty happy. Although you do not know what I was feeling right now.

Since my conversation with Raka it, I choose to lock myself in my room until the evening. I was just out at dinner only. In the room, I grabbed a notebook-I did not really notice anything that notebooks are already contains half. I opened the pages are still blank at random.

Then I written all my heart there:

What's special about him? So did you choose to come back to him. Not one thing will you remember? He ... he's been hurt before.

Then I opened a blank sheet and I wrote again there:

What ... your heart is closed for other people that you choose to return to the people who have hurt you first. Why can not you open your heart for someone else?

I opened a blank sheet again and again I wrote there:

When I know you're middle fragile, I tried to treat the wound. Tapi..tapi why are you even yell at me, Raka? Even my words, then, do not you listen at all. What should I do? What I have to give my false smile again on your happiness? I can not, I can not deny that I like with you, Raka. I ... I was trapped in my own feelings to you.

I opened a blank sheet again and again I wrote there:

If love was a mistake for me?

I closed the book. The tears that came out at that moment I could not stand it. Let's tear dripping. These tears have represented my heart will feel sorrow that I experienced today.

The next day, in class. Raka borrow notebooks Ppknku because he has not had time to copy the material yesterday. Without thinking I immediately borrowed my book on Raka and I immediately left it in class. Raka immediately took the book. Indeed Raka rarely recorded material provided by the teacher so that he often borrow my book.

This time I found Raka unusual attitude to me after almost show time after school hours. Her gaze was really strange to me. What is happening to him? Since from hours to 4 last lesson he did not speak a word to me. Even her face tends grim.

When I was about to go home, suddenly Raka pulled my hand without speaking a word to me. He took me to the second floor of the school. What does this mean? I do not understand why Raka brought me here.

"I want to ask you something. You have to answer honestly. "He leaned in front of me. "You why the hell? Very serious speech. What is it? "I asked, curious. "What really writings in this book you wrote your article right?" He said as he pulled the notebook is in the bag. I was surprised by the look of his face Raka me. "Writing? Writing what the hell? Note the material is nothing wrong huh? "I said. "You do not remember ever writing what you wrote in the backyard of the book you wrote it?" While opening the workbook. The longer I'm such a fool that suddenly I can not remember what I wrote earlier.

"What this means, Rara? This is not writing you is not it? "He asked as he showed me the article. When I read it, I was immediately surprised. It felt blood flow in my veins suddenly paused. My heart was racing at the time. I can not say anything at that time. I can only bow my head. Oh God, what should I say to Raka?

"Raka, answer any questions I had. You wrote is a lie, right? "While shaking my shoulder. Whatever happens, I have to tell the truth on Raka. I thought at that moment. As she took a deep breath in me started to open my mouth and started to say, "That's right. I who wrote it all. "I said immediately. I could feel a bit of disappointment on faces Raka after hearing my words. Speaking honestly him enough to make me glad but on the other hand, I'm afraid ... I'm afraid that Raka will stay away. A few minutes passed, we had both silent. Not a word that comes out of the mouth Raka. I too, crying is one way to express one's feelings at the time. Back my tears dripping, the same tears as I write 'writing' it in my book.

"Raka .. I'm sorry. I should have realized from the beginning that I had to eliminate these feelings to you. But ... I'm helpless. That feeling ... the feeling that one that grows over time. I ... I am. "I have not finished talking, Raka immediately cut my words. "Rara, you're not wrong. I'm stupid, so far I'm not aware of this. I'm too selfish to think of myself. "He replied. "But Raka .." instantaneous direct Raka holding my shoulder. "I appreciate your feelings to me. But I'm sorry, I can not reply to feel it. My heart already has. But you are my friend, you may think of me as your best friend no more than that. "Hearing that, suddenly made me want to hug him. I hugged Raka instantly and tears incessant dripping tears are tears of happiness.

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